Clean Day 30
Hi my name is ******** and I’m an addict. thirtyfuckingdays. 30. I wanna throw a fucking party and use. But I won’t cause that’s right back where I started. I’m just a mix of excited, happy, scared and on the verge of relapse. But today, that is a great thing. I may not have a sponsor, and I may still have the same problems I had on day one, but at least im not on day one anymore. I’m on day 30. Day. Fucking. Thirty. Look at me, 30 days. I try to post everyday but sometimes I really don’t know what to write. It’s like raising your hand at a meeting when you really don’t have anything to share. So I’ll post here as often as I can just to keep you guys updated on my recovery. It’s not easy. I mean, I’m watching every part of my life gradually get worse, but it’s not getting worse.. I mean it’s all been this way for a long time, I’m just letting my reality finally settle in. And yeah, sometimes I’m screaming for help on the inside, and I’m laughing on the outside, and I won’t say anything and I’ll go home and hurt myself.. but it’s better than using right? That’s an issue for another day though. So in my description it does say that I do accept asks. So now that I’m finally 30 days I opened my ask to both people logged in and anons. Please, don’t bash me. If you don’t like it, Fuck off. If you wanna support, The buttons there. Thank you to all those that follow! This blog is another reason I made 30 days so thank you for all the support I’m getting it really does go a long way. Thanks for letting me share.
